Lost

i sit here in the denver airport with tears streaming down my face unsure of where i go next i do not want to go back to where i have been yet feel lost and directionless about where to go all my effort all my weekends all my time blood sweat tears feel for not i feel stupid i feel ashamed i feel betrayed i feel where do you go when you feel lost where do you turn where there are no clear directions it is beyond hard for me to keep moving forward at this given moment i truly don't know how. those are words that seem foreign yet so familiar way too familiar as of late my heart aches my stomach churns i feel sick i feel broken i feel battered i feel unwanted i feel i want to live i want to feel free to feel happy not like this not like a fool i have so much i want to say i want to stand up for myself i want to be proud of myself yet i feel small and kicked around it is true what they say i am a gentle soul underneath the punky hair the big laugh is someone who simply wants to do good things in the world i want to make my daughter proud i want to make a difference here's to new beginnings i hope mine comes tomorrow happy reading

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